Smiles and hahas~

That day when i saw what you write on your blog.

i ask myself, how can i smile without you in the pictures of my life.

If it makes you happy.

im not crying anymore...yay...well..not all the time...haha~

sure i miss when you called me baby and i call you dear.

but you said it...is over...we're over...

I tell myself, i have to get over it...is hard...i know..

im not saying im over it now....

i just have to do it one stap at a time...

When i need someone to talk too...

i just go do something and make myself busy..

so i can forget what i wanna say...

so i won't miss the days....

the days that i tell you everything...

the days when all my free time is on the phone with you...

I never tell you this...

when im on the phone with you...

although your not next to me.

i feel safe.

i feel that someone is there for me.

be there for me when i need um...

all the bad feelings that i have will be taken away by you...

so sweet rite?

haha....

I think im acting very crazy lately.

i wanna ask you...am i crazy?

but i don't dare too...

cuz i feel that we're not as close as we use to be...

coures, your not my half anymore...im sure is normal to be like this...

Im trying so hard to keep the conversation running with you on the phone...

try to not stop the phone buzzing in my pocket...

Always looking for things to talk about...

phone bills, phone line, schools and the how are you's and also the goodnights works for now...

but slowly i think...just slowly...it won't work anymore..

and you won't reply me anymore...

is ok...is normal... i know..

i know you have your own life to live too...:)

i'll back off~~~

You make me grow a little...

you make me know where im bad at..

but im still bad at listening to people. haha.

look at the time, is 5am already.

and im still here writing this blog...

see...haha..

Sorry for sending so many text msg.

im sure you'll think im annoying...and crazy..haha.

im sorry for being a jerk...

ok, i got to stop here!

too much writing!!!

i donno what to say for the ending part!!!

i wanna say i love you!!!

but that is wrong!!!

CHICKEN!!! haha!