Now i know....

Wait, what am i going to say?
Oh! Now i know you really don't love me anymore...
Wow!

So, i just came back from KL for like 23 day and he dump me...
I repeat 23DAY! Not even a month~~~Wtf!!!
Hello!!! i have feelings too ok?!!

Ok...im sorry for being to harsh there...
but he really did hurt me and to top it off,
we just past our 1 year anniversery which is on the 29th of Dec...
man, that just ain't right...don't you think?

For the things that i have done for him...
awwhh...i donno where to start...
When i move away from KL and back to JB,
everymonth i will go back to KL to find him.
By bus or by airplane i don't care, cuz i only wanna see you...

Do you know how tired am i of bus???
i have to sit in the Fucking bus for 4 hours to get to KL
and you think air plane is easy for me???
im very scared of falling from the sky...
but at that time,
nothing is more importent that having to see your face...
to touch you, to feel you, to hug you...
just to be with you for a few days...
and in the end you say im very inconcideret... bu ti liang...

I fight with my family for you...
My mom keep forcing me to break up with you...
2 of my sis keep on telling me things i don't want to hear...
My brother keep on mocking you and i always fight back for you...
You think i never try to let them know you and accept you?
I keep on fighting for you and wishing one day we will have a happy ending...
but guess now theres no truning back...
After what you have done now...there is no more chance for us...
If you gave up on me like this...there will be no truning back...

yes,i feel happy when you say maybe one day we can be together again.
even now I Do... but really... if one day we really do...
my sisters, my father, my mother, my brother, even my friends...will hate me...
They will say im stupid for going back to a guy that dump you when you loved him so much...
he will totaly hurt you again...

You try to think back.
What have i done for you?
What have i done to deserve this pain?
Did you ask me if i wanted to break up with you?
Did i agreed to this decision?
Have you think of what i will feel?
wow! this is so consideret of you! so Ti ling me oh!

Yes, Short pain is better than long pain...
Hey, let me ask you something.
1 year is like 5 mins to you is it?

Who's the one that always saying "please don't leave me baby"...
Why do you have to tell at the first place when your going to leave me first?
You know, i really did what you said...not leave...
Thats why it hurt so badly...

All the things you said to me are all lies...
Im so stupid for believing you...

Hey, are you playing with my feelings?
Are you the guy i use to love so so much?
Are you Kelvin Chin?
I gave you everything...my love, my time...everything...
And what i get in the end???
Nothing...
I don't buy clothes for myself very much...
I only buy for you...
I wanna buy a Rm1o clothes also have to think very long...
but for you 5sec also done ady...
I'll do anything for you...but...
now is all over...

This is not the end...cuz im still alive...