Post From iPod Touch! ^~^

I can write a blog with my iPod touch!!! Now only I know~.
But I can't upload a picture :( too bad...
Is 2.30 in the morning now and is raining cats and dogs here in Kulai.

Last time I love rainy days but now I really hate it.
Donno what's gotten in to me lately...-_-

I have new bruises on my body...
Donno where I get it from again...=_=|||

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me is elva~~~hehe.

OMG!!!!

I haven't got myself any clothes for Chinese New Year!!!
Not even shoes!!!
What to do! what to do!!!

i think i'll just have to....
wear something that i haven't been wearing for a long long time~~~lolx!
think that'll work!!!

But shoes!
i've only got high heels that haven't been worn~
damn it!!! im not good at walking with high heels!!!

Still got few days to go~~~
Donno what will it be like this year~
might be boring~~~
but i love the fact that we get money in a red paper bag for doing nothing!
and also being together with all my family~i mean my mom and dad and sis and bro only!
other just....meh~i can live without them~bwahahhaha~

Hope my mom won't be unhappy about little things by than~~~ :)

Hope this year is a peaceful year~
Hope my family will stay healthy~
Hope this year will be a lucky year for me and my family!!!

Guruguruguru Pang!!! :)

Stupid Pictures~teehee~

The Ipod Touch camera sucks like poop~

so, i have to use my old phone camera to take this picture~

But i still love it though~ :)

I can get lost in it for the hold day~~~

Just playing games like "GodFinger"

Is a fun game where you can be god and use your finger to make the little things work~

and i also can kill them~~~evil...hehehe~

My sis got me a Rilakkuma~

See! is holding my Ipod!!!

So happy~~~

But is no good for hugging when i sleep~

the body of this little thing is too small and the head is too big~lolx!

Wooopppeeeyyy~~~ :)

I got an Ipod Touch for myself~~~:)

I'm so happy that i get it~

Too bad is not jailed breaken yet~

I wanna download more app for freeeeee~~~~hehe~~

Got Something...:)

No time~
Have to sleep now!!!
woot!!! is still early!!!
Is only 4am.
Gonna try 3am tomorrow~
Hope i can get home early tomorrow...:)

Good Night MEEE!!!! Yay!!!

My Lovely Little Dog.

I once have a dog that i loved very very much.
I give him food,
spand my time with him,
give him LOTS OF LOVE,
and also buy him things.
I'll do anything to make him happy.

But one day,
he bites me and ran away.
It hurts, i when to the hospital to get a injection.
But it still hurts alot...the scars.
But the doctor said it will be ok in a week.

The dog came back one day.
I forgive him so i give him SOMETHING to eat.
I give him all my love but he rans away again.
Now is not the bites...is my heart...
It hurts badly...nothing can cure it...

nothing....

I think to myself.
Maybe he wants freedom.

But i know freedom.
Freedom will slowly becomes meaningless.
When your out there in the world all alone.
The coldness that everyone give you.
With no one to miss and to go home too.
It suck...
People will be nice to you cuz they wanna use you.
Believe me, i know.

So i won't go out there looking for him anymore.

His gone...forever...

Remember,
i still love you even when you run off on me when i love you so.
But i won't want you back..
cuz i know i will get hurt by you again doggy.

goodbye...

Smiles and hahas~

That day when i saw what you write on your blog.

i ask myself, how can i smile without you in the pictures of my life.

If it makes you happy.

im not crying anymore...yay...well..not all the time...haha~

sure i miss when you called me baby and i call you dear.

but you said it...is over...we're over...

I tell myself, i have to get over it...is hard...i know..

im not saying im over it now....

i just have to do it one stap at a time...

When i need someone to talk too...

i just go do something and make myself busy..

so i can forget what i wanna say...

so i won't miss the days....

the days that i tell you everything...

the days when all my free time is on the phone with you...

I never tell you this...

when im on the phone with you...

although your not next to me.

i feel safe.

i feel that someone is there for me.

be there for me when i need um...

all the bad feelings that i have will be taken away by you...

so sweet rite?

haha....

I think im acting very crazy lately.

i wanna ask you...am i crazy?

but i don't dare too...

cuz i feel that we're not as close as we use to be...

coures, your not my half anymore...im sure is normal to be like this...

Im trying so hard to keep the conversation running with you on the phone...

try to not stop the phone buzzing in my pocket...

Always looking for things to talk about...

phone bills, phone line, schools and the how are you's and also the goodnights works for now...

but slowly i think...just slowly...it won't work anymore..

and you won't reply me anymore...

is ok...is normal... i know..

i know you have your own life to live too...:)

i'll back off~~~

You make me grow a little...

you make me know where im bad at..

but im still bad at listening to people. haha.

look at the time, is 5am already.

and im still here writing this blog...

see...haha..

Sorry for sending so many text msg.

im sure you'll think im annoying...and crazy..haha.

im sorry for being a jerk...

ok, i got to stop here!

too much writing!!!

i donno what to say for the ending part!!!

i wanna say i love you!!!

but that is wrong!!!

CHICKEN!!! haha!

Now i know....

Wait, what am i going to say?
Oh! Now i know you really don't love me anymore...
Wow!

So, i just came back from KL for like 23 day and he dump me...
I repeat 23DAY! Not even a month~~~Wtf!!!
Hello!!! i have feelings too ok?!!

Ok...im sorry for being to harsh there...
but he really did hurt me and to top it off,
we just past our 1 year anniversery which is on the 29th of Dec...
man, that just ain't right...don't you think?

For the things that i have done for him...
awwhh...i donno where to start...
When i move away from KL and back to JB,
everymonth i will go back to KL to find him.
By bus or by airplane i don't care, cuz i only wanna see you...

Do you know how tired am i of bus???
i have to sit in the Fucking bus for 4 hours to get to KL
and you think air plane is easy for me???
im very scared of falling from the sky...
but at that time,
nothing is more importent that having to see your face...
to touch you, to feel you, to hug you...
just to be with you for a few days...
and in the end you say im very inconcideret... bu ti liang...

I fight with my family for you...
My mom keep forcing me to break up with you...
2 of my sis keep on telling me things i don't want to hear...
My brother keep on mocking you and i always fight back for you...
You think i never try to let them know you and accept you?
I keep on fighting for you and wishing one day we will have a happy ending...
but guess now theres no truning back...
After what you have done now...there is no more chance for us...
If you gave up on me like this...there will be no truning back...

yes,i feel happy when you say maybe one day we can be together again.
even now I Do... but really... if one day we really do...
my sisters, my father, my mother, my brother, even my friends...will hate me...
They will say im stupid for going back to a guy that dump you when you loved him so much...
he will totaly hurt you again...

You try to think back.
What have i done for you?
What have i done to deserve this pain?
Did you ask me if i wanted to break up with you?
Did i agreed to this decision?
Have you think of what i will feel?
wow! this is so consideret of you! so Ti ling me oh!

Yes, Short pain is better than long pain...
Hey, let me ask you something.
1 year is like 5 mins to you is it?

Who's the one that always saying "please don't leave me baby"...
Why do you have to tell at the first place when your going to leave me first?
You know, i really did what you said...not leave...
Thats why it hurt so badly...

All the things you said to me are all lies...
Im so stupid for believing you...

Hey, are you playing with my feelings?
Are you the guy i use to love so so much?
Are you Kelvin Chin?
I gave you everything...my love, my time...everything...
And what i get in the end???
Nothing...
I don't buy clothes for myself very much...
I only buy for you...
I wanna buy a Rm1o clothes also have to think very long...
but for you 5sec also done ady...
I'll do anything for you...but...
now is all over...

This is not the end...cuz im still alive...