Words...of a broken young heart.

I wish I could go back in time for only one day and held hands with you and be so in love again. For just a day, I could feel the innocence of our young hearts beating ever so fast as we see each other. That was undoubtedly the most beautiful and at the same time sad days of my life. I want you to know you are one of the most spacial people that I meet in my life and will forever leave a mark in my heart. Forever...

When to Universal Studio Singapore~

This is some pic's

This and That~

Been so bored lately.
Chinese new year is around the corner.
Time to clean the house...but...but I'm so lazy.....=_="..

I'm gonna make a list of things I want to do before Chinese new year here!
(although I know nobody what's to know...hehe)

1. Make-up with Mom.
I don't admit I'm wrong, but I'm going to do it anyway. Every time is the same. She thinks she's always right and I'm always the WRONG one in the house. Even my siblings will feel this way too~ they all blame it on me for making her mad... Hey! How about my feeling?!! Calm down~calm down Elva~ just let it go~ is ok!!! If I don't make it up to her, my life is going to be miserable in this house...and maybe there's no Chinese new year for me... I don't want that to happen~

2. Clean the fucking house!!!
My house's a mess!!! Just going to do my best to hide those rubbish. Is going to be as rubbish"er in two days time anyway... I should put sign's on the table "Rubbish should go in trash-can Bitch!" "Hello! This is not where you put Shit!" (My apology for being so rude here)

3. Clean my room.
Been wanting to do this for a very long time..."low chuckle"

I think that's about it~
Gambateh neh E Lu Bah!!!

Is 5:25 in the morning. I feel super tired but I can't sleep because of some stupid milk tea! This always happens to me...T-T".....

Down in the dumps...

I don't know how to describe my feelings.
I feel.. envy,sadness,sorrow,pain,loneliness...
I know I should not feel like this now.
I have things that are better than most of the people in this world.

What is wrong with me.

Feeling useless.
Can't do anything right.
Feeling helpless.
Can't help anybody that is in pain.
Feeling hopeless of myself.

Maybe this feeling will go away.

I want to go to the beach and sit on the sand quietly...listening to the splashing sound of the waves.

I don't want to think anymore!

Go to sleep and hope tomorrow Is a better day.
Also hope I won't feel like this anymore...

Fall in Love with a Guitar~

Today I when shopping with my boo~
and I found a guitar that I really really REALLY liked!!!!
Is from Takamine. So is kind of expansive! >_
But I really really like it!!! Is like, love at first sight~

Is Rm889~ is really expansive to me right now cuz I'm low on cash~
Jobless...:(
Damn it!

Need to get it soon!!!
Or else...

My Family~

I love my family.
But lately I'm very sad because of them.

I feel very stress.
Feels like I can't take it anymore.
I can't sleep at night at my own house cuz I feel pressure living with people who thinks I'm not good enough.

My own sisters and brother...

I'm really sadden by this.

I know I'm not as smart as you guys or get many A's in school like you guys did.
But really...why do you have to say such mean things to me.
It hurts my feelings you know?

I won't ever in my life say such mean things to my friends...let alone my own family...

You have the rights to say what you want to say in this world.
But it doesn't mean you have to say mean things to hurt people.
Everybody have feelings you know?

Dear brother and sisters.
I'm sorry...
I didn't grow up to be a good little sister that you guys wanted me to be.
And I think I never will...
Cuz in all your minds, I'm always a good for nothing stupid girl...
But I will always love you and be there for you guys no matter what...because you are my family.

But this time...
I really did get hurt... deeply...

Rilakkuma wash!

In the washing machine~~~
twist~twist~turn~turn~
DING!!!
All done~